How Do I Stop The Flood?

Today has been a day of decisions and emotions.

I met with a surgeon this morning to see what my options are for my gall stones. There are many risks involved in doing it now and even waiting until later. If I do it now the anesthesia could cause me to go into labor. If that happens they would have to stop the surgery and start giving me medication to stop the labor. If that didn't work and I actually ended up having the baby there isn't much hope of it surviving. It's just too early.

If I wait until later I run the risk of my gall bladder become toxic and leading to pancreatitis which would cause my whole abdominal area to become swollen put me into early labor. Of course the longer I go the larger my uterus gets and the more cramped things get. That would obviously put more pressure on my gall bladder causing more pain.

Now is the best time, in my situation, to have the surgery. My uterus is just barely above my belly button so if we wait any longer it would get more complicated. They do the surgery laporoscopically through the belly button. Unless they end up damaging a vital duct in the process then it becomes major surgery where they have to cut me open just below the rib cage.

I am scheduled to have the surgery next Tuesday. I am of course nervous and afraid that I'm putting the baby in danger. This decision has been a very difficult one and the tears have not stopped since this morning. I have much confidence in the Doctor and feel good about being in his care. He spent about thirty minutes talking with us and letting us know all of our options. He will be joined in the surgery by my OB that will be monitoring the baby. Instead of an outpatient surgery I will be admitted so they can monitor me and the baby.

The Doctor is LDS and told us to pray about this decision and involve our families in the process. It would mean so much to us if you could send up a few prayers on our behalf and for our sweet little angel baby we can't wait to meet.

Zoe's Big Stuff

Maggie had been asking me to have lunch with her at school this week and we were finally able to on Thursday. We had finally gotten our van back so Zoe and I were mobile and available. I packed our lunch in a little back pack and Zoe carried it to the car. She thought she was big stuff walking around the school with her back pack. We had a good lunch and were happy to see Maggie. We miss her while she's gone and we are glad the school allows us to visit her once in a while.

She thinks she's ready for school!

What a Way to Wake Up

Early this morning I was woken up by Zoe kicking me in the stomach and the baby retaliating and kicking back. I wasn't able to get back to sleep for quite some time. I finally dozed off when Zoe started squirming and kicking again. I then heard Maggie sneezing and going into the bathroom. I figured it would only be a matter of minutes before she was climbing into bed with us. To my surprise she instead helped Zoe out of bed and they headed to Maggie's room. There was a little ruckus and then Zoe came into our room saying, "People! Hello people! It's befas time!" She first tried getting Glenn out of bed and then came over to my side. Maggie had gotten them both dressed up in dresses and their Lowes aprons so they could be waiters and serve us breakfast in bed. Too cute. We opted to not eat in bed, but they still got to serve us.

According to Maggie it's "helping day". I could use a few of those that's for sure!

I Need a Surgeon?

My OB's office called yesterday to refer me to a surgeon for my gall stones. I have an appointment on Sep. 4th. Unless I get worse before then. I'm not really looking forward to what he has to say. But, I am looking forward to feeling better so I guess I'm going to the surgeon!

Model Search

I have two little posers. Every time the camera comes out they have to strike a pose and pretend to be models. It's pretty funny...except when I want nice pictures.

I started a tradition of sorts when Maggie was little. I took a roll of black & white pictures of her on her birthday. I have missed a couple of years, but decided I wanted to start again this year with both their birthdays. Well seeing how their birthdays are both in the winter it just didn't work. I have been waiting and waiting for a day that was a little overcast, warm and not windy. That day never came. Now that Maggie is 7 and 1/2 and Zoe is almost 2 and 1/2 I decided we just needed to at least make an attempt at getting some pictures. We started taking them mid-morning which was not a great idea. The sun was so bright and it was way too hot so we decided to wait until that evening. I think we got a few good shots. I haven't gotten the roll of film developed yet so here are just a few from the digital camera.

The monkey that started it all...
Maggie Marne
August 22, 2009
7 1/2 years



Our ubber poser...
Zoe Jade
2 years and 5 months
August 22, 2009


It's hard to get a really good picture of Zoe. For some reason she feels she needs to look down instead of at the camera or she has to do a pageant pose...






We did manage to get some good ones of them together...

First Day of School 2009

Happy first day of school Maggie Moo!

I know you will do great this year!

Maggie and Mrs. Masters

Maggie and Zoe just before school

The happy first grader!

Maggie's prayer tonight...well a small portion of it:

"...help me to have another wonderful day!"

Sounds like a success to me!

Dang It!

I spoke a little too soon about the pain being manageable. I had another "attack" last night. The good thing about it is that it only lasts a little while. Pretty much right after the barfs I can go on with life. I just choose not to. I am so tired all the time.

I'm looking forward to the day I can be normal again. Whatever normal means.

Test Results

Yes, I do have gall stones. Not sure how many. The tech just said more than one. One is pretty large. Since my test was done on a Friday the results would not get to my Dr. until Monday so I have no idea what will be in store for me. My pain is manageable at this point so I don't think surgery will be anytime soon. Hopefully we can avoid that, at least until the baby gets here.

Angel Baby Update...Kind Of

I was hoping to be able to make this post an announcement of what exactly we will be having. However, the baby had a different idea. It is breech which made it difficult for the Doctor to get a decent angle and then the cord was in the way too. She said she would do another ultrasound later to determine the sex.

I am scheduled to have an ultrasound at the hospital next Friday to check my gallbladder and see if that is what is causing the pain I have been having for over a year now. I don't think they would check the baby for us, but it won't hurt to ask!

This picture makes it look like the baby has very long neck. It looks a little alien at this point!

It's not pretty...

but here I am at 19 weeks. We were hoping to find out the sex of the baby today, but no luck!